You know how sometimes when you visualize, John, you end up daydreaming, too?
Or when you finally remember to perform an act of faith, it feels kind of hokey?
Or sometimes you catch yourself worrying, or thinking too much about the past, or wondering whether or not you have invisible limiting beliefs holding you back?
Well, that's exactly what all Illuminates go through (especially the good-looking ones). But they arrive in spite of it, and so will you.
Worry not; just keep chugging.
Hugs,
The Universe