Dear John,

Some years ago our four-year-old son came to me with an odd expression on his face and said, “I didn’t do nuffing, Mommy.” His transparent attempt to appear innocent gave him away, and I asked, “Where didn’t you do nothing?”

Looking down, he admitted, “In the closet.”

We went there straightaway to discover what mischief he had gotten into. A quick glance revealed that he had taken all the bottles of vitamin pills and dumped them out into great heaps on the closet floor.

I enjoy sharing this story because in the innocence of a child’s mind, we see a reflection of our own efforts to hide our mistakes. Whether silly lapses or mortal sins, we hope that no one, especially not God, sees our errors. Yet in this attempt to cover things up, we carry within us the burden of guilt, shame, and self-blame.

I’m not suggesting that we broadcast our failings to the world, but there is another way to drop the millstone of guilt that hangs around our neck. Without fear of judgment or rejection, we can offer all our past wrong actions to God. In truth, He knows about them already. And He will probably be as amused as we were with our son.

In Paramhansa Yogananda: A Biography, Swami Kriyananda wrote: “I can vouch for his perfect knowledge of the thoughts and actions of his disciples. He once said to me, ‘I know every thought you think!’ And he proved that statement again and again. Once at Hollywood Church I told an insincere member that I would be giving next Wednesday’s class. ‘In that case,’ the member said, ‘I will be sure to come.’ Well, I knew he would have come anyway; therefore it irritated me slightly that he would pretend to be coming only because I would be giving the class. Wanting to deflect his insincere flattery from myself, I answered him (not very elegantly, I’m afraid), ‘In that case, would you please stand outside and check people’s pockets for vegetables as they come in?’

“A few days later I was with my guru while he entertained guests for lunch. After they’d left, as I sat at the table alone with him, he remarked to me casually, ‘By the way, when you are talking with a congregation member, don’t talk about vegetables! It isn’t dignified.’”

So if God and Guru already know about our mistakes, why do we need to tell them? Because by trusting that God has only our highest welfare in mind, we begin to dissolve the protective shell that the ego has created to defend itself. By offering up to God our missteps, we no longer need to carry them as subconscious burdens. Gradually, as we let down our defenses, the ego gains a transparency and innocence that is the mark of true saints.

There’s a story from the life of St. Joseph of Cupertino, a great saint, who in his simplicity was often the butt of practical jokes from his fellow monks. One day as he was doing his chores in cleaning the stables, a group of them came to tease him.

“Come quick, Joseph. There’s a cow flying in the sky,” the monks said, trying hard to suppress their laughter. Rushing out of the stables, Joseph looked and looked, but could see no flying cow. Finally unable to contain their laughter, one of them said, “You simpleton! Don’t you know that cows can’t fly?”

With the guilelessness of a child, Joseph replied, “I’d rather think that cows could fly than that my brother monks would lie to me.” Stung to the quick, the taunting monks departed, shamefaced.

Knowing that God already sees everything that we’re trying to hide, have the courage to open your heart completely to Him. Believe that Divine Mother won’t punish you for any foolish actions, but will help you to make better choices in the future.

In a beautiful essay that Swami Kriyananda wrote towards the end of his life, “Why I Love My Guru, Paramhansa Yogananda,” he says: “He [Yoganandaji] was ever, and is now more than ever, my nearest, dearest companion. If I am right, I feel his inner smile. If I am wrong, I feel his inner encouragement to do better.

“He is on my side in every struggle against delusion. Could anyone be a better, truer friend than that?”

What a great reassurance to accept that God knows us, sees us to our very depths, and still He is on our side in our efforts to overcome delusion. There’s no need to try to hide anything, because we stand forever in His loving sight.

With joy,

Nayaswami Devi

Nayaswami Devi first met Swami Kriyananda, Ananda’s founder, in 1969 and dedicated her life to the spiritual path. In 1984 she and her husband Jyotish began serving together as Spiritual Directors of Ananda Sangha Worldwide. Since Kriyanandaji’s passing in 2013, Jyotish and Devi have carried on the great work that Yogananda commissioned him to do.

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