Member Ela Nowak Praises Our Recent Guilt Exercise What I felt when I was inside is almost indescribable....
Hello Gary,
I wanted to let you know that I absolutely loved the "Guilt exercise" from last Sunday.
I tried at the beginning to do the "car wash" visualisation but it seemed that no matter how much/hard I clean myself, I will never be clean enough.
So I just walked through the door and I saw a huuuuuuge ocean and everyone in it so I dived in. What I felt when I was inside it is almost indescribable.... It seems like this because it's a feeling that was so alien to me..... I felt at first very strange that I am ONE with others. I realised then and there how much I have been running from people and how ashamed I was, because of my guilt.
felt that a very strong transformation was happening inside me (like some things were cleansed out of me and at the same time new, good things were entering into me). And then I felt the happiest feeling I ever felt in my whole life.... I felt so ADEQUATE and ENOUGH, and FITTING IT and A PART OF A GROUP!!!!! For the first time I felt comfortable being a part of a group. It was such an amazing feeling that words can't describe it....
I also did the exercise the next day and I felt that there is a lot of abundance in that Oneness and that it's for us to take it. I also realised that when someone did something "bad" my reaction was: "Hey! you are still a part of us, you are still with us. What you have inside is something that I have too (even though maybe I don't use that part anymore). But that thing you have is a part of THE WHOLE and it is NECESSARY, IT HAS A PURPOSE." I realised that the last thing that can happen in that Oneness is to reject somebody/something. It's impossible! Everyone and everything is accepted, because all is needed and necessary.
I really wanted to share this experience with you because I think it was the most beautiful experience of my life..... My biggest desire in fact, even though I didn't know it. I realised that all I ever wanted was to be A PART OF A GROUP and I've been running away from people because I was scared of rejection. And I've been trying to accumulate/achieve things, but all that was only to FIT IN, to be ACCEPTED.
As a summary, as you probably see, I can confirm that this exercise has been phenomenal for me.... I'm lost for words to describe how precious it is. So far, the next day I feel lighter and happier, more comfortable and at ease. If I see more results I will let you know.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS EXERCISE!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤ BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG HUGS AND KISSES!!! 😍😍😍😍 Ela | 