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Joyelle McSweeney

daughter style
to order the black sneakers
to keep the late appointment
to convince the lady hygienist to see you
even now, even now when we’re so late
large, glossy, and made of power
like Europa pulled away by cow to drown at sea
who comes back every morning as her avatar, Dawn
she leads you off to the white interior
your grin is spreading

it’s so American to hurt you like this
for the sake of your own white teeth

to send the old pair back
to order the next size up
to study your toes, how they line up
shell-pink and auspicious
as romanovs in snow

when I’m your age I sit in the schoolroom
and contemplate wheel of fortune
the cardboard globe tilts in its metal brace
if you pull it out of the brace it has two holes in it
and is easily dented
which is what the brace is for
but you have to dislodge it to learn this
so it’s already too late
as we stare at the door
try to melt the afternoon with laser vision
tap at smashed screens with sore fingers
(you’re with me now)

Will you
take back
what you said
if I swathe you
in denials
thick as a
sneaker tread

my own inutility
gapes like a snake in the stars
flashes fangs
writhes pointlessly
and swallows nothing
I don’t bother to look up anymore

but grope under your pillow for devices
under the datestamp, a tsunami
battens then retracts from the amusement park
thinking better and leaving
a huge eye of wheel in the mud
in my mind’s black eye,
an old nerve winks like a lost fortune
an old possibility goes gill-green
sneakers wash up along the shoreline

in your sleep you repeat the motion
of advancing, retracting
of flinging wide your nets to net the moon
but like every tide you fail
like a pulsing star you signal
like a star you fail to hide behind your signal
from the journal ITERANT
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The poems of Death Styles were written in response to an insoluble problem: How to survive the death of a child. How to reconcile grief's directive to thread the gaze backwards with survival's imperative to move forward in time. 

The poem featured here could not have had a more mundane inspiration: being late to a child's dental appointment. Yet I held onto it like a life raft. Writing this poem was a way to survive a day.

In this way, I have survived all of them, so far.


Joyelle McSweeney on "Death Styles 9.2"
Color photograph of Ocean Vuong sitting in his study by an open window
Ocean Vuong: "Have I Caught Up with Myself?"

"Every poem suggests its own kind of physics, each with its various dials for syntax, grammar, pacing, enjambment, line length/speed, and my work is to lean in and commit to that matrix, which is different for each poem. I have a deep suspicion or, more accurately, an ambivalence to the myth of 'style.' I believe the common anxiety for a writer to 'find' or 'establish' a style is actually incredibly limiting—and the longer I teach the more I find this to be true."

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M. L. Smoker on "Heart Butte, Montana"


"It is then next to impossible for me to ignore the echoes that reverberate from beneath and across the earth’s surface. There is both a human and non-human story here. Such places formed by millennia, marked by water and ice, light and dark. Of shifting rock and the new formation of land, plateau, mountain range. Humans were taken in and the land cared for us—we were gifted survival and song by our plant and animal family."
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