God
Christian J. Collier
I used to think
there was only one of You
before the miscarriage.
Now, I am not so sure.
Maybe there are a number of Gods to wade through
before falling at the feet of the last true one:

                     the jade God we pray to
                     who does not come or answer
                     & the plum one who appears to offer salvation;
                     the opal God who offers a limited extent of His kingdom
                     & the olive one who only offers condolences;
                     let us not forget the violet God that is bad with man
                     because He is deeply holy.

We all seek the one of manna though, don't we?
He, the one of follow-through.
He, the one of action & consequence.
He, the one holding all we hunger for
like butterscotch in His palms.

That's the God I want
to be alone with for a few moments,
the God I wish to have to myself
in the hushed hours when I should be up & readying for work
like millions of other souls dispersed
across the country's ink-black pillow.

That's the God whose name I utter
when I sit in silence
on the shoulder of my mattress. I dream
with eyes open of goading Him into halting my child's rest,
guiding his or her tiny light close to the brushfire
flickering in my breath.

That God? That great & swollen orange storm?
That's the God haunting me.        The God who keeps His distance.
The God whose star-draped hands I envy.
They come at day's end
to tuck my baby, my ember, into its infinite, feathered bed.
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I had the great honor of having Vievee Francis lead my Breadloaf workshop a few years ago, and she encouraged me to aspire to make unique worlds and symbols that can be returned to. Vievee’s inspiration sparked my desire in “God” to make a world where there could be many divine entities, but the most desired one for the speaker is the most unavailable which sustains his heartbreak and loss.

Christian J. Collier on "God"
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