☀ Today's Poem:「Obake Obachan」Bret Yamanaka

The porch light flickers for thirty-six years. Somewhere
a hen claws the dirt, thin legs scrambling to leave a trace. Maybe another girl
dances alone in her room. Maybe we curl back our tongues to mimic the red
glow beneath the smoke crumbling into a bowl of ash. Call this a prayer,
call it a daily grief because we’ve forgotten how to shape the name
with our tongues—can only name the man who swallowed your light.

So name him. Dew on the sand. Rain on a cloudless day bending every ray of light.
Our faces turned away from the sky. Somewhere, a fox celebrates a false marriage where
he’ll crawl back into that murky darkness. A tattered pinion: useless. Another name
without a body. Another body on the side of the road. Another small girl—
maybe you—with black hair, small ears, piercings. This time. Another unheard prayer.
Remember how we would hide inside our homes if the sun burned red

and the sun burned red every evening, soaking the seam of the sky with blood
or something like blood. Even now we ignite the backyard with fluorescent light,
sear our eyes with smoke to chase a memory and choke down a shared prayer.
The salted fish wrapped in taro leaves, the smoked flesh of pigs—a meal where
we can pick the bones clean, bones we can hold in our hands, bones we can bury. Your
pictures pasted in every window, every mouth echoing have you seen Diane?

A chorus of mouths, of hands, of sockets gaping wide in search of your name
and the body that carried it. The unnamed body that carried you away. The tiles stained red
with his first hunger. How my mother would quietly call me Rose. Hide me in the girl’s
bathroom, too afraid to send me alone but unsure why. How I still scramble for the light
switch, clawing the bathroom walls for that plastic reassurance. Wear
the remnants of insects and wax smeared across my lips—call this a private prayer.

Look at the banyan tree. How it hangs off the sky like a prayer,
tied to its host till what it clings to rots away. And what thrives, unnamed
inside that hollow: a god, a ghost, everything we’ve buried, where
we ache to forget—for rain to come and flood the space between our ribs, or fire
to devour it, and us with it. How every evening that flickering light
is a kind of yearning. How I imagine at the edge of that yearning you

toe the dim line, afraid to walk into an empty home. Yes, even now I imagine you
dancing. How one day we’ll empty ourselves of all our prayers:
the lies we untwisted like cellophane wrappers, a handful of feathers, the dim light
of incense at the bottom of a bowl. But please, just once more, tell me the name
of the song you hummed in my dreams—the one with the bright red
apples buried beneath the winter snow. Teach me to sing the song where

the wind never wept into my hands the name of any girl
where the waters could soothe the red glow of our prayers
and in that soft silence, somewhere, we could turn off the porch light.